Well, here I am a year and a half later and haven't updated this site. I think it's just been difficult to put all that I'm experiencing down on paper. 18 months have gone by and though things have calmed down it's not any easier dealing with such a blow of having my husband incarcerated. We are still waiting for the appeal to happen. You know, you have the right to a speedy trial (except if your Serbeck)but you do not have a right to a speedy appeal. I'm trying to have faith in a miracle but as more time goes by it feels as though Reg will serve at least his minimum term of 3 years. So, now the thing for me to do is establish a new normal. I have to provide for my family without a husband and that means working. I'm not afraid of working. I worked full time for 10 years while raising the older 2 girls in a very stressful job as a social worker. Just can't do that again! Too hard of a job and I have enough to worry about to have to worry about other people's problems. The economy right now can I say "sucks"! No good jobs with benefits in the SU area. Looks like part time job for now.
I should say through all of this my family has received so many blessings in our time of trial. So many good people who have been our living angels have helped us through the most difficult times of our lives. They are right where they needed to be. Thanks to my wonderful Bluffdale friends and ward members who helped me through the last year when I was trying to sale my home and helped me pack my large home to move without a husband. Thanks to my new Hurricane ward who stepped right in and helped me move in without them knowing me. I think there was 20 elders that came to help me. They have since helped in ways I so badly needed with a home that is a fixer upper and in need of repair. Talk about salt of the earth type people, the Hurricane people they are! I know I am in the right place at this time. And then my daughter Paige decides to serve a mission and is now in the Bangkok Thailand mission. They are right when they say the family is blessed when they have a missionary. Paige is going to be a wonderful missionary and I look forward to her many stories and tales. I miss her but she is right where she needs to be. I am living my life through her eyes right now, oh how I desire to be a missionarY! We are so blessed when we lean on Heavenly Father and we try to do all that we can in his way. I am grateful for the gospel in my life and know that "this to shall pass". Eternity beside our Heavenly Father and our families is the ultimate goal. So, if we have to wait another 18 months or even the next life to be a family in eternity it will all been worth it!
